~~Thursday, April 29, 2004~~

Your Results:
The top score on the list below represents the faith that Belief-O-Matic, in its less than infinite wisdom, thinks most closely matches your beliefs. However, even a score of 100% does not mean that your views are all shared by this faith, or vice versa.

Belief-O-Matic then lists another 26 faiths in order of how much they have in common with your professed beliefs. The higher a faith appears on this list, the more closely it aligns with your thinking.

1. Unitarian Universalism (100%)
2. Liberal Quakers (93%)
3. Neo-Pagan (92%)
4. Theravada Buddhism (89%)
5. Mainline to Liberal Christian Protestants (86%)
6. Mahayana Buddhism (86%)
7. New Age (81%)
8. Bahá'í Faith (76%)
9. Secular Humanism (74%)
10. Taoism (65%)
11. Christian Science (Church of Christ, Scientist) (64%)
12. Reform Judaism (63%)
13. Jainism (62%)
14. Orthodox Quaker (61%)
15. Sikhism (57%)
16. New Thought (56%)
17. Hinduism (54%)
18. Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (Mormons) (53%)
19. Nontheist (49%)
20. Scientology (49%)
21. Mainline to Conservative Christian/Protestant (47%)
22. Orthodox Judaism (42%)
23. Jehovah's Witness (39%)
24. Islam (34%)
25. Seventh Day Adventist (34%)
26. Eastern Orthodox (22%)
27. Roman Catholic (22%)


All I can say right now is....interesting, very very interesting

~~Tuesday, April 27, 2004~~

This is What you Made Me Do
When you wake tommorow
When you come home and remember
I wasn't there
Nod your heads kids
I bet you won't think otherwise
CLick on the TV
And Gasp when you see my yearbook picture I never did like
On the Six o'Clock news
She'll tell you solemnly about the young highschool student
You saw me laughing
The one with the bright eyes and crazy ideas
She'll tell you, hands folded, make up painted on
What a tragedy
Solem lips, blank eyes
Nod your heads kids
Remember me


I close my eyes after a long day
Lashes brush my cheek as I try to forget
Bright lights fire off behind closed doors
As my brain tries so in vain to turn off
A pale hand sweeps quietly over a memory
Scoops it into the shallow fingers
And pours the nightmare off the bed
There it lays pooled
Shimmering dark and menacing
As I lay curled and shaking
It tries so desperately to reach me
Its apparent yearn for flesh is seen
This flirtation with the obscene
Has taken form
And devoured my soul
So i lay in vain
As it creeps slowly, so slowly back into my bed
To seep into my eyelids
Shut, but not locked to the pains of you.


I'm not from here
A little abberation that was not meant to be found
Differences in little terms
I came here for a crime to be repayed
Your planet
Is my home's hell
Feel guilty?
No?
Good
We're all here to pay for our sins
And to relive what we have done
I'm here biding my time
Sitting back in the shadows watching the turmoil
Waiting until they let me go back home
Waiting until I've served my time
On your planet you call Earth
But we call Hell

~~Thursday, April 22, 2004~~

1) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says: "how's the weather?" His uncle asked, lifting the stone. His hands
2) Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. Lotion!....wait wow...
3) What is the last thing you watched on TV? The Best Week EVER! VH1
4) WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is. 4:09
5) Now look at the clock, what is the actual time? 4:10
6) With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? Piano Music....someone hasn't been practicin....:(
7) When did you last step outside? two hours ago?
8) Before you came to this website, what did you look at? www.MarilynManson.com
9) What are you wearing? jeans, I heart bob's taxi shirt, Black Pumas and a hair clip
10) Did you dream last night? Yes....I was on a carousel with Sponge Bob
11) When did you last laugh? This afternoon in biology....sex videos with monkies tend to have that result
12) What is on the walls of the room you are in? Black and white shots of Kurt Cobain, Marilyn Monroe, Elvis Presly, Audrey Hephburn and James Dean
13) Seen anything weird lately? yeah, Two female monkies doing it
14) Last movie you saw? ZOOLANDER! the kids i was babysittin owned it so I made them watch it
15) If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first? A really cool HOUSE! With a water slide that goes through the whole house muahahhaha
16) Tell me something about you that I don't know. I fell last night in my room and screamed out, TARTAR SAUCE!
17) If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? I would make it like the books in the Dinotopia series where everyone is happy and calm and has a dinosaur who talks
18) Do you like to dance?YES!!!!!!
19) George Bush: Do I like to dance with George Bush?
20) Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? Coraline
21) [Same question for a boy] Zack
22) Would you ever consider living abroad? I wish I was lucky enough :)
23) Last beverage drank: Coca Cola
24) Last food consumed: Spaghetti Noodles
25) Last phone call: Rie? I think....wait! let me check my cell phone history calls thing, OH YEAH! dylmatic called me in the middle of class to tell me I should bake him a pie...tight
26) Last shoes worn: Pumas!
27) Last cd played: Sargent Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band
28) Last annoyance: my mother
29) Last word spoken: drunk (yeah dont ask)
30) Last sleep: Last night, what kind of question is that?!
31) Last last time hugged: ummmmm.....like 1:35ish? so precise
32) Last lipstick used: Chapstick like right before bio got out, lipstick like two years ago?! ...i hate lipstick mucho



And this
This is the story of my life
I sit here, hair tucked securely behind my ears, biting my top lip as I try to tell you what has happened
Our existence, my life and yours and the man in the corner in the back of the bus
They all matter and are discovered at one time or another by each other
My life is just a facet of yours
A simple thread of knowledge and date you can store and remember, or even forget
So how do I tell you what has gone on in my presence?
How do you describe torment to it's justice?
How can you ever really capture security and the presence of instability?
I want to share my story with you
Will you listen to what I have to say
More importantly, will you care
The effect of myself on people is minimal
If I were to never exist the world would still spin, the lottery would continue ripping people off and you would most likely still fail your math quiz tommorow
So how do we know whether or not youre missing someone?
How am I supposed to tell the story of my life
If I don't even know if it's the real version
The fabric of life is full of wrinkles and holes
Have I just slipped through?
How am I supposed to relate to this world of complexity
When I find myself searching for troubles of my own
A story that has no beginning
No middle
And no end?
So I sit here, friends and foes, without a means of retaliation
All I know, is my hair is still tucked behind my ears, and my lip is still being bitten
All I know is that I'm here, and my life is mine to own

~~Wednesday, April 21, 2004~~

Trying to breathe but finding it hard
What's the point of crying out for help
If no one cares enough to hear your call
I'm slipping into point blank death
A quiet time, a place for rest

~~Monday, April 19, 2004~~

i have wounds
that never heal
i have scars
that go deeper than you can see
i've endured hurt and i've endured him
i'm stronger than you know
strong enough to let you see my scars
strong enough to tell you who i am

~~Sunday, April 11, 2004~~

and here's a toast
to the mother fuckers who burned me into the ground
i raise my glass and tip my hat
to the knives that made me cry out loud
so here's my salute i'm oh so proud
of all the pain i've endured
if it werent for you and all you shit
my past would still be blurred

~~Friday, April 02, 2004~~

Well kids...I'm off to Maui for a week, so an extended absence is to be expected. Don't worry for like the two people who read this, I'm bringing my notebook so if the beaches or volcanoes inspire me, it'll be down....

Peace

"To prepare a face to meet the faces you will meet"
- e. e. cummings

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